*Have you ever been in a situation where you feel you shouldn’t have done something and at the same time you feel it was right for you to do it?
Being in the in-betweens.
Myself, I have experienced the same not once, twice or thrice. And in all honesty, I known you will agree with me that we all go through this . But What or who makes us feel so.
I love having this perception of myself; as two people.
Strange? Oh no.
One, is the son of two wonderful people, my parents. Born in some small village somewhere in Taita,brought up with so much love and care, going through some educational system somewhere. Not all, and greatly influenced by the immediate surroundings or environment ;friends, haters, family, community, things happening in this outside world etc. (which happens to be his greatest weakness).
The other person, is the one I gave birth to since the very first day I was initiated into this world. The person I invented. The one, people are almost not aware of, housed inside the other. I always think that this is the person who makes people great, celebrities, to be looked up to by others, that separates them from other folks. This person is so unique. He has a habit of arguing out and questioning himself first before taking any step. Myself, I prefer calling this other me *’The Archetype.”* The Archetype is the person that lives within the ‘Solomon’
I tend to think that it’s these two antagonists, and allies at some rare occasions, responsible for the internal arguments that usually occur in my mind. They get into conflict whenever they have contrasting ideas and opinions toward a particular subject. All of them send impulses (views) to the brain, and this results to thoughts or rather discussion. The one wins over the other is the one who influences my actions.
This is my point;
Our personality is highly dependent on these guys. Being strong or weak mentally, emotionally and physically, self-confident or lacking self-esteem, generous or mean, problem solver (which are very in our world) or being quick to give up on challenges that come our way, all this is the work of either of the two. Qualities that make a person (individual) distinct from another; manner of behavior; charisma, or what make one stand out from the crowd.
The ‘me’ influenced by the environment :Have you ever been in an unfamiliar place maybe at the podium addressing a large group of people and nervousness sets in? I guess we have all gone through this at some point in our lives. Not being able to help yourself, losing or missing steps while walking around, being unable to communicate well. Myself, I felt particularly embarrassed! “Oh damn, please not now Amygdala, don’t let me down. Please not now,” I would say to myself. Maybe to sort of bring my mind on truck, but to no avail.
Well, I guess this will give a hint.
Have you ever balked on embarking a certain task out of fear? Fear of being alone.
This is one the works of this person. He tends to make us feel comfortable with the community around us, making us nervous when it comes to going by our own words.
And I can confirm it to you that it has been really tiresome for ‘Archetype’ to fully convince this guy that I should write this down before this day was over because he wouldn’t let me to. He would constantly persuade me to go for some ball game, which is equally important. But it was so selfish of him actually.
He gets so much affected by what other people say about him, criticism especially. He mostly lives by the definition the world makes of him if not controlled by the other person of me. He can even go sick because of this, I can bet that. Always wanting to be noticed by the world and be praised or appreciated. He would do everything to be noticed by a crush.
But this is how he is designed, maybe, I don’t blame him.
Unfortunately he doesn’t make it alone, and if he does go alone he ends up doing some weird things, embarrassment.
The other ‘me.’
Some people tend to refer to him as the soul.
You have probably heard those great achievers; great business men and women, athletes, prominent musicians among other people, when being interviewed, saying that they are successful because whatever they do is something that comes from within them. And that is what psych they up each and every day, never letting of their goals and dreams.
He is the key to a calm mind, good concentration, and clarity of perception, improvement of communication and blossoming skills and talents.
The more this person gets stronger, the more we can go through all kinds of odds, ups and downs that this world tend to push our way.
Maybe it’s time to set this common cliché right; beauty doesn’t lie in the eyes of the beholder. Beauty is an inner phenomenon. All the greatness that we visualize originates from within. All the greatest inventions and innovations in the world started from owners’ inner person. He is the source of almost everything good in the universe.
Carl Jung says in his autobiography, *Memories, dreams and reflections*, “*when no answers come from within to the problems and complexities, they ultimately mean very little.*”
So people, who makes most of your decisions?
Who do you think is much more responsible for who you are today?
Who do you choose to spend most of your time building, or rather empowering in this case?
Be you,and build you.
Let’s meet at the top-where we all belong.